You know what sucks the most about wanting a career in filmmaking? Besides my complete ignorance to what I want to do, even if I did have a clear picture of my future planned out, it wouldn’t go as planned. [and i’m pretty sure i’m working toward Director of Photography now]
When you want to be a doctor, getting there might not be easy [and i’m definitely not saying it is!], but if you take all the right steps and work hard and really want it, you’re guaranteed a position as a doctor when you graduate. A big college counselor sets you on the right track, and all you need to do is your half of the bargain and voila! You’re on your way.
I know that if I lay it all on the line, and go to school for this, and work my ass off for it, and study and network and do everything that I know how to do that the chances of me ever being the next Quentin Tarantino are still slim to none.
But, I’m a hopeful person. And as conceited as it may sound, if Joel Madden can remember me in a room full of thousands of people, why cant a big film director?
That would surely help me get my foot in the door.
However, you don’t network by sitting on your ass and watching the trailer for Seabiscuit on repeat while typing to tumblr all your doubts…So, I did what I do best.
Used my words and e-mailed Universal pictures, Dreamworks Pictures, Warner Bros, Legendary Pictures, Focus Features, Paramount, Lionsgate, Columbia Pictures, The Weinstein Company and Peace Arch Entertainment.
And by the next post, I plan to have a resume made and sent out for internships.
I can’t wait for Inglourious Basterds to come out.
Notes: People to Contact:
Don Burgess [cinemetographer/forrest gump]
Jeff Cronenweth [cinemetographer/fight club]
James Haygood [film editing/fight club]
Laray Mayfield [casting/fight club]
Lawrence Sher [director of photography/hangover]
Debra Neil-Fisher [film editing/hangover]
Some people will watch that and not think anything of it. I watch it and immediately know it will be in my dreams, that I love it and that I wish I could make something as AMAZING as that.
My crazy talk is passion. It’s pathetic I know, but havent you ever wanted something so bad it made your toes tingle!?
Nothing makes me cry like a movie does; I inherited that gene (and the one that makes me want to kill somebody while cussing at them mercilessly when I stub my toe) from my mom.
And from my dad, I got the unbelievable love of movie trailers.
Sometimes I like them more than the movie.
If i’m doing anything other than something I love, I just won’t ever be myself.
Let’s hope the last blog entry in this tumblr is one of me laughing at how great life is.
So today I did a lot of thinking, and partial action. Don’t get me wrong, if I knew where to start or what to do, there’d be a lot more doing and a lot less thinking on my end…but! As I have said before, i’m completely ignorant and lost to all of this.
No matter, though. I will just keep doing what I can until I figure something out. Which means study study study online, message message message anyone with info, and stalk stalk stalk Michigan Film Production.
Speaking of which, Michigan Film Production e-mailed me back today with advice about Dov Simmons [or simmens, simons, croissant, I don’t remember]. Which got me giddy again because I had contact with a person from a company that knows shit about filming. So, of course, being me, I replied loosely and with questions so that maybe the heavenly individual on the other side could give me some more details and insight about anything dealing with anything film related!
I remembered to be charming, polite and aggressively innocent. Gotta keep them interested. Gotta keep my name remembered.
How often do you come across an e-mail that is “psykoticcheerio”, anyways?
Then, after a 15 minute phone conversation with Allycia about how much it blows that we’re just talking about how we need to get out there in the film world, but keep on missing opportunities [like Edward Norton filming at Jackson prison, and George Clooney filming at the airport RIGHT BY MY HOUSE! or almost hitting Kim Catral [or whoever, the whore one on Sex and the City] with our car] I decided that my incessant cluelessness and need for answers didn’t meet its quota for the day so I messaged Sean Patrick Flanery on MySpace.
I know that sounds silly but he’s helped in the past, and really, who else do I know with years of highly successful experience?
In a nutshell my message said “blah blah blah *repeats myself 12 times* blah blah blah, I don’t even know the questions let alone where to start with answers blah blah blah if you could help me out blah blah blah, please and thank you.”
And I asked if he had anyone in the film crew business that was trustworthy that I could talk to.
Hopefully Powder replies with loads of useful information. Because if he did, when I become successful, I will give him a big hug and thank him ten thousand times over.
Anddddddddddd, i’m out!
After I posted all of that ^, I came across this site V
it’s actually pretty helpful. At one point it said to list my top ten personality traits, so using a list of personality traits that I googled [Lol], I picked the top ten that suit me:
Top 10 Personality Traits
3. Driven [when I care]
4. Good with people/ likes to get to know people
5. Open minded
6. Better when working independently
8. Works fine under pressure
9. I have artistic creativity
10. I’m like half follower/ half leader. It depends on the situation, as much as I want to boldly put LEADER, the thing said I have to be honest with myself. And honestly, if something deals with being precise and right, I will follow someone elses answers and actions due to my self conscious feelings of always being wrong.
List of Personal Values for a Career
2. Freedom in the work place
3. Flexibility in my schedule
4. Ability to be creative on my own
6. Respect of my opinions/thoughts
I need to figure out my financial needs/wants. So far all I know is that I hope to make $80,000 a year. Even if that is a big number.
5. Good with words/spelling
6. Good listener
Okay, I do not know why I am starting this blog. I’m too inconsistent to keep up with consistency, which means this blog has a 12% success rate of being updated more than once a year. 12 percent, baby.
(Then again i’m pretty bad at math.)
I thought though, you know, in the moment when I was eating a freezer fun pop and it shot me in the brain that making a blog would be a good idea, that I would base my blog around something. That way every time I signed in to it I wouldn’t just be telling you what my favorite color is, and how the kids at work couldn’t play outside today because there were heroin needles everywhere.
At first, I thought maybe I would do a “My Thoughts About Movies” blog. That maybe my opinion on Transformers 2 would spark some interest in people. But, my Roger and Ebert talent probably isn’t all that well. And that idea has so been done.
So, what else? What else?
Then it hit me. I am going to use this blog to document the seemingly most important thing in my life right now — finding a career.
My whole life (well, not to be dramatic, at least the past 4 years) has been a quest to figure out something that I could and would want to do for the rest of my life. My biggest problem with this whole life planning thing is my inability to choose just ONE thing to do for the rest of my life.
Where is the fun in the same thing?
My heart is just not in to the things that are outwardly known for a high success rate. And I don’t blame the people who urge me to go for that business degree, or try for a nursing degree…but I can’t bring myself to do it.
It won’t make me happy. It never will.
The only thing my heart has ever really been in to for more than two weeks has been movies. Ahhhh, yes, movies.
It took me so long to make the connection though, that maybe fantasizing about a life including a Irish twin brother where we go kill scum, or having a best friend free killer whale, or becoming a pilot in World War 2 with a stuttering partner, or being a hooker with dreams of acting who falls in love with a penniless writer (and does the grown up with Ewan McCgreggor, haaayy!)…might be a little bit unrealistic.
What’s the next best thing, besides living the life of a movie?
There’s only one thing that stays consistent with my life: the dier want of making movies. If I can’t live out the fantasy, I’m going to make my own.
I can’t be sure if I will succeed where many others have failed, but I can be sure that i’ll never be sure unless I try.
I’m not sure which field of the filmmaking business I want yet, right now i’m on the idea of being the film editor. How cool would it be to make the vision complete! But I think I would be happy in all areas ~ even if i’m a grip that gets yelled at by Christian Bale. ;]